Freedom.
I have been chasing after herÂ
for more than a decade
She is as elusive and mysterious
as she is entrancing
I wore down my feetÂ
in marathon lengths
until I faced mountains and cliffsÂ
too steep to climb
Why, God, whyÂ
was I not given wings to fly?Â
I walked through storms and darkÂ
until I broke my bones
I broke my heartÂ
No longer able to walkÂ
I screamed in silenceÂ
lost
all dignityÂ
lost
all hope
of any freedom
Losing everything
I thought mattered mostÂ
I learned to see beauty
Not in the vast horizons far beyond
But...
in frail fleeting blossoms
in resilience of frosted seedlings
the delicate balance of nature
taking only what is neededÂ
to sustain
We only have what we have
Here and now.
And there
I saw her face at last.
In the growing pains
of resetting bonesÂ
My greatest pains
My greatest fears
Gave me
Freedom.Â
© 2024 Marieke de Koker